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Sephiroth ([personal profile] vehementi) wrote2016-05-16 03:25 pm
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angealwings: (Smirk)

[personal profile] angealwings 2024-05-14 04:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Angeal pauses at the question, blinking. And, yes, looking for Sephiroth, he was afraid that might be the case.

But that question was answered, and he finds himself... Unhurt by it. Instead, his mouth quirks up at one side. Because, come on.
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Still stuck with me.

[ The hint of a smirk solidifies, just a little, and he steps in front of Sephiroth once again, and, once again, reaches for him. Instead of wrapping a hand around his waist, he tangles fingers in a strand of silver hair. He knows. He knows that every part of him has been soaked in blood. And that doesn't scare him. ]

I'm not as fragile as I was, Seph. You waded through rage and destruction, some of it not even your own, but in very many ways, not unfounded. I sank through a pit of despair and guilt and pain.

But we're standing here, neither of us free of them, but neither are we drowning in them, anymore.

I can take your fury, and stand beside you beyond it, not because I'm invincible, impervious to it. But because hurting you back won't take away my hurt, only add to yours.

[ He lets go of the strand of hair and pokes a finger into Sephiroth's chest. ]

Don't think I won't push back, though. Just... when it's not about lashing back. You know as well as anyone that I'll put my foot down when something's gone too far.
angealwings: (Foreboding)

[personal profile] angealwings 2024-05-16 10:57 am (UTC)(link)
[ Angeal was an honorable man. But he gave up on his honor the moment he considered himself a monster.

Monsters have no honor.

Compassion... compassion, on the other hand, he has refused to surrender, other than for himself - whatever shreds of it he had held on to before, he had let go of with the first beat of his wing. It was a long, hard road, to find out how it mattered at all, that compassion. Until he found a way, before Hollander twisted the knife in his chest with finality - a war to fight all suffering. It is why he could not return to Shinra, back then, for they caused much of the suffering he saw, but they stopped some, too. Hence, he could not join Genesis against them, either.

Compassion is also, yes, why he found a glimmer of hope, eventually, in the personal hell he had dropped himself into. And compassion led him to Sephiroth, his precious Sephiroth who was so broken, by Angeal himself included, and used and abused by force far too great to win against. Why he hopes - not for himself, still, but for this man.
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I've called myself that, and worse.

But not for being yours.

[ Do as you will.

This time, it's Angeal's hand that wraps around Sephiroth's collar, holding him in place as he steps closer and claims a kiss.
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This. This is what I will.
angealwings: (Anticipate)

[personal profile] angealwings 2024-05-18 09:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ Angeal doesn't let go, nor does he step back far, but he doesn't press himself closer, either. Letting Sephiroth find his own pace... and processing himself, also, what did happen. Taking the moment, too, to consider properly why things broke, and, yes, he can see, a little, how him taking in the pain would have turned Sephiroth away - not from Angeal. But from Sephiroth himself.

Ah.

Why...

He doesn't flinch back at the question, but he does consider, eyes still on Sephiroth.
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There are many answers to that one. Some are selfish, others painful, and the deepest ones probably hard to believe, and all of them are true.

I want you. I see nothing for myself unless I am by your side, and I don't see anything getting better for you unless I am by yours, too. I need to atone, for leaving you alone when you needed me most. I also want to find out who you are now. Yes, you did horrible things, but how much was you not fighting another's will, and how much is what you would have done free of it? It makes a difference to me, even if nothing can take back what has been done.

When all is said and done...

The men we used to be are gone. The men who were heroes, the men who wanted to end that which creates suffering. [ His shoulders drip in shame, just a little, but he doesn't let his gaze drop. ] I'm here because I believe there is someone worth staying for, right in front of me. Who is in constant pain, and sees no path forward that makes any difference. And I want to find that hidden path. With you. I want to find out who we will become. Together, as we always should have been.

Why? Because even as you are, you are still my light in the darkness. Even if you don't believe you can be. Even if I am drawn like a moth to a flame - it is better than despair. But I won't burn that easily.
angealwings: (Default)

[personal profile] angealwings 2024-06-03 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
You alone wanted it.

[ His voice is low and quiet, and rather than the near question which might make Sephiroth think the doubts him (he thinks it's not the entire truth), he adds, ]

Then let it be so.

[ It's not the entire truth, not with the pain that he can see coming to his man. And he doesn't try to hold Sephiroth again, but he does place one warm palm on his back, above the wing. ]

I'll be ready when you do hurt me. But, just as certain as you are that you will, I know that, if I'm not next to you, I'll be hurting us both. Every moment.

I won't make you my light. But, please. Pain and pleasure, despair and reality. Let me be your Angeal again.
angealwings: (Worry)

[personal profile] angealwings 2024-06-18 01:34 pm (UTC)(link)
ooc: Continued here.